This thing inside, I don’t know what it is but it hurts. It breaks my heart day after day, week after week.
It makes me cry, makes me mad and helpless. I cannot figure it out nor can I control it. It consumes my mind and destroys my self confidence. It questions my purpose and forces me to doubt who I am. It pushes me into corners and locks me away from the world. It begs me to stay silent but drives me to cry out in pain and desperation. It takes me to places I do not want to go, makes me do things I do not want to do. It brings me to my knees night after night. This thing inside, I don’t know what it is but it hurts….