107/365: Battle — We all face battles in life; some serious and some not so. We fight to save our relationships, to keep our friends, our jobs and our families together. Everything in life requires work. If we want something to work we have to put the effort in. Sometimes we can feel as though we are going round in circles and situations feel hopeless. Some of us face personal battles that can be overwhelming. Those battles are hard and tiring. They wear us out to the point that even getting out of bed or keeping our eyes open is a battle. I urge you to keep going. Keep heading towards the end of the tunnel because it will come. I promise.
Recently as part of my word challenge for this year I wrote a post about anger and how I felt towards God over the loss of my brother. Since then it has played on my mind an awful lot. I have managed to speak to other people about the anger I am feeling. I wanted to share with you a little of the journey I have been on.
92/365: Stress — I am someone who gets stressed out an awful lot. I take on far too much sometimes and then it stresses me out. Stress is never good as it causes so many problems. Take time out to allow yourself to relax and recharge. Allow others to help you so that you do not have to manage too much on your own.
61/365: Darkness — The world we live in is full of darkness. We are surrounded by suffering, pain and hate. In my city over the last week there has been a murder of a forty four year old mother, the body of a man has been found in the canal, and another inside a house on a busy street. There have been groups of grown men fighting in the street. My heart goes out to all those families whose loved ones have been hurt or taken from them. You only have to look around the city or town you live to see darkness. You only have to open the newspaper or switch on the news channel to see how much darkness there is in the world. Martin Luther King, junior famously said Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. My prayer is that people shine a light in the darkness and share love instead of hate.
41/365: Obstacles are always going to appear in our lives. We are going to be faced with something that we will not know how to fix. Obstacles try to stop us, and hold us back. We will struggle and fight to overcome the obstacles that come up. Obstacles can be overcome with patience and calmness, time and thought. You just need to believe that you can overcome them
10/365: Pain — Pain comes in all shapes and sizes. You can be in physical pain or emotional pain. Pain is essential in life. Without pain we would not be able to appreciate being well or feeling good. Pain creates in us a fighting spirit. Pain makes us stronger. Whatever pain you are going through right now remember that it will end. Pain does not last forever.
I often wonder what would happen if I just left home one day and failed to return? Would people actually notice? Would they really care? Would I care what people thought?
What would happen if I just stopped turning up to my regular hangouts? If I stopped texting and calling? If I decided I did not want to be involved in the same things anymore?
Truth is, I don’t know what I want anymore and I don’t know where I belong. The even bigger truth is that I don’t know who I am anymore.