104/365: Butterfly – Butterflies are beautiful. They have a very special place in my heart. They are free creatures, created by our amazing creator. At every given opportunity I choose to wear my butterfly scarf or something else that has butterflies on. They have a calming effect on me; watching them gives me a sense of relaxation and peace. If I had to be something else in the world I would choose to be a butterfly.
96/365: Walk — I love going on nice long walks especially when it is sunny. This morning I must have walked nearly eight miles through the woods and along the beach. It was so beautiful and peaceful. The beach was full of people walking their dogs and children running about. The wind was gentle and it was the perfect opportunity to evaluate and think about things.
18/365: Rainbows – If you know me I love rainbows. There is just something about them that makes me smile. They are pretty and represent calm. Rainbows come after the storm. The rain hammers down, the sun comes out and the rainbow appears. It brightens up the sky and shows how amazing God is.
12/365: Beautiful –We use this word to describe a lot of things in life; beautiful people, music sounding beautiful, the sunset being beautiful, the night sky full of stars looking beautiful, someone’s hair being beautiful, the bride looking beautiful. Every single person has their own definition of what is beautiful. Personally I think the waves crashing against each other is beautiful, sunrise and sunsets are beautiful, the rain is beautiful, rainbows are beautiful. I am blessed with beautiful people in my life, not just for their looks but for their hearts too.
I though I was dreaming, seeing you lying there. Then I touched your cold face and realised I was awake and this was reality. You were actually gone. Tears ran down my face as I kissed your cheek. I told you I loved you so much and longed for you to say yes like you always did. But you didn’t. The only sounds were of people crying. We sat with you and talked to you. It looked as though you were just sleeping. We kissed you and told you we would come and see you again the next day.
The drive home was horrible. The car was silent except for the odd sniffle as we tried to digest that you weren’t going to be coming back home. Walking into the house destroyed me. Everywhere I looked there were reminders of you; your box of toys, your coat hanging on the back of a chair, your cds stacked on the shelf. I would have given anything to have heard your banging feet coming in behind me, to hear you ask for Alison Moyet on your machine, to see you throwing your toys around the room. Anything.
You have been gone for over twenty four hours and believe me they have been the longest hours of my life. I still cannot get my head around it. You are never again going to be at home with us. I will never hear you sing or laugh again. I won’t hear you ask for your favourite meal or favourite CD. I won’t ever again be told off for singing along to your music. I won’t feel your arms wrapped around me for a hug and I won’t get anymore surprise kisses. Never again will I hear you ask for a second breakfast or shout at the top of your voice for your daddy Roy. I will never again hear you say that everything, and everyone, was gorgeous.
I always said you would be a heartbreaker. There are so many broken hearts right at this moment. You easily touched the lives of over a hundred people, possibly even two hundred. The lights of so many lives were dimmed when you closed your eyes for the final time. You brought so much happiness and joy into the lives of those around you. I am so lucky that God chose me to be your little sister. You gave me twenty three years of love, laughter, fun and memories that I will treasure. I promise I will never, ever forget you and I promise to live my life to the full. I love you more than words can ever say.
Rest in Peace gorgeous boy, until we meet again xx
This beautiful fifteen year old girl was taken far too soon from this world. A young girl with a wonderful voice and lots of talent. Sadly, like so many other young people, she battled with inner demons.
Please listen to the beautiful Elle Holmes singing Mirror Mirror, a song that she wrote herself.
If you can, share this video on your social media profiles. Let’s get Elle heard around the world. Let’s send out a message of hope to those struggling. Young people need to know that it is okay to ask for help. It is okay to not be okay. Young people need to know that they matter and people care. They need to know that there is hope and there is help available to them.