64/365: Loneliness — Loneliness to me is one of the worse things anyone can experience. When you are lonely you doubt yourself. You overthink and become critical of yourself. You crush every single compliment that has ever been given to you. You pick out all your faults and repeat them to yourself over and over again. Loneliness, in my opinion, causes mental illness. The worse kind of loneliness is when you are surrouded by people yet feel like you are not. Loneliness hurts and it is a horrible thing to go through.
54/365: Bullying — Bullying hurts. Bullying damages lives and destroys people. It breaks people so much that they get ill. Some people even take their own life because of bullying. It breaks my heart when I read about a child taking their life because of the way somebody has treated them. Unfortunately bullies do not know what is going on in their victim’s life nor would they care. I have been a victim of bullying. It started when I was eight and did not stop until I was fourteen. I was quiet at school which I guess made me an easy target. I did not know how to stand up for myself. The truth is I should not have had to. I was called names and I was laughed at. Sometimes I was physically hurt. I was cyber bullied too. Bullying made school difficult. I did not want to be there. But I did not let the bullies stop me from getting an education. I went to school and I did my school work. I kept my head down and tried my best to ignore them. I faced my bullies day in day out because I had no choice. It was either I won or they did. I was certainly not going to let them win. Bullies look for things that are different. They bully other people because they are not the same as them. We should embrace the differences in others. We are not all the same and that is okay. We were all created differently. I would urge all parents to teach their children how to stand up for themselves, tell them how much they are worth. Drill it into their heads that they matter. Make sure they know who they go to if they are being bullied. Always be approachable and allow your children to share their worries with you. Teach your children to respect others and show them how to be kind. It is time we stamped out bullying. Too many lives are being lost due to people hurting others. It is time that changed!
I often wonder what would happen if I just left home one day and failed to return? Would people actually notice? Would they really care? Would I care what people thought?
What would happen if I just stopped turning up to my regular hangouts? If I stopped texting and calling? If I decided I did not want to be involved in the same things anymore?
Truth is, I don’t know what I want anymore and I don’t know where I belong. The even bigger truth is that I don’t know who I am anymore.
She watched as he gathered together his clothes and tossed them into the suitcase which lay open beside the double bed. The bed they had shared for the last two and a half years. She was heartbroken, tears streaming down her face. The one person she loved with everything she had was leaving with no explanation or reason.
She could not understand what she had done wrong….she loved him, cared for him, sacrificed her time for him yet it did not seem like enough. She must have been able to do something more. She knew he had struggles, she knew that he faced demons inside his head. She thought that she made him smile, and made him happy. But at this very moment she did not know who or how he was, she did not recognise him. The man she fell in love with had disappeared. She did not know why or how but she knew that he was different.
This beautiful fifteen year old girl was taken far too soon from this world. A young girl with a wonderful voice and lots of talent. Sadly, like so many other young people, she battled with inner demons.
Please listen to the beautiful Elle Holmes singing Mirror Mirror, a song that she wrote herself.
If you can, share this video on your social media profiles. Let’s get Elle heard around the world. Let’s send out a message of hope to those struggling. Young people need to know that it is okay to ask for help. It is okay to not be okay. Young people need to know that they matter and people care. They need to know that there is hope and there is help available to them.
Today I was asked the following question by a mental health professional: Do you want to get better? I was not so quick to answer. I took a few moments to consider the question before I shrugged my shoulders….I don’t know.