107/365: Battle — We all face battles in life; some serious and some not so. We fight to save our relationships, to keep our friends, our jobs and our families together. Everything in life requires work. If we want something to work we have to put the effort in. Sometimes we can feel as though we are going round in circles and situations feel hopeless. Some of us face personal battles that can be overwhelming. Those battles are hard and tiring. They wear us out to the point that even getting out of bed or keeping our eyes open is a battle. I urge you to keep going. Keep heading towards the end of the tunnel because it will come. I promise.
92/365: Stress — I am someone who gets stressed out an awful lot. I take on far too much sometimes and then it stresses me out. Stress is never good as it causes so many problems. Take time out to allow yourself to relax and recharge. Allow others to help you so that you do not have to manage too much on your own.
10/365: Pain — Pain comes in all shapes and sizes. You can be in physical pain or emotional pain. Pain is essential in life. Without pain we would not be able to appreciate being well or feeling good. Pain creates in us a fighting spirit. Pain makes us stronger. Whatever pain you are going through right now remember that it will end. Pain does not last forever.
Sometimes people feel they need permission to be a certain way. It is like something big happens and the automatic response is that you must feel something; love, hate, anger, happiness, sadness, pain. However the truth is that sometimes these big things can make us feel nothing at all. And that is okay. It does not make you any less of a person. It does not make you heartless or selfish. We are all different and we all act differently to the things that happen in our lives. If you deal with grief by going for a run or a cycle then do it. If you respond to a break up by sitting with the girls eating a huge tub of ice cream watching the Friends boxset then do it. If you find that talking about the latest family argument helps you then do it. If, like me, you prefer time on your own thinking and having a good old cry then that is fine too. You are important. Your wellbeing is important. When life throws those nasty things at you, find a way to cope that works for you. You do not have to sit for weeks and cry your eyes out because that is what your neighbour does. You do not have to feel anything that you don’t want to feel just because those feelings seem like the normal things to feel. Find what works for you and do it. Just do it!
I often wonder what would happen if I just left home one day and failed to return? Would people actually notice? Would they really care? Would I care what people thought?
What would happen if I just stopped turning up to my regular hangouts? If I stopped texting and calling? If I decided I did not want to be involved in the same things anymore?
Truth is, I don’t know what I want anymore and I don’t know where I belong. The even bigger truth is that I don’t know who I am anymore.
(My inspiration for this post came from The Fickle Heartbeat blog. Go and check it out!)
I am not one for New Year Resolutions. In previous years I made the typical New Year Resolutions…...I will eat more healthier, I will do more exercise. I would make these resolutions with good intentions however a week later I would find myself lying in bed with a huge bar of chocolate and a film.